I'm back!!

FINALLY! at least that is prolly what jill is thinking. lol! sorry girlie! it's been awhile this i know, but there was nothing great that happened, and so now i have news.....
I PASSED MY FIRE TEST!! Whhhhhhoooooooo!
haha, i know i am a dork... but the state actually lost my test then i had to call down there many times and finally got the confirmation. so i am well on my way. why silly things always happen to me is totally unknown, but they always make fun stories.

on another note.... i got nothing, just wanted to see if you were paying attention! ;) yeah, that is how bored i am! :)

Jill is making me!

Ok, so i started to get bad at this blog thing, but it's not my fault. 1. i have been very very busy with work, fire classes, and trying to have a social life. which leads me to the other point... 2. i have nothing new to report! lol. but jill is making me update so here it goes.

i have one week and one day left before i take my fire fighting test for the 24 hour. this means that IF i pass i will actually be able to go on runs, not actually into buildings when they are on fire, but at least starting to get some experience under my belt. so keep those fingers crossed for me! other than that i have been very busy triny to cover work shifts, which is again not anything out of the ordinary. but one has to work and let's face it over time is not all that bad.

one final thing, i have a job interview on monday, kinda excited about but we will see, i don't want to put all my eggs in one basket so i am trying not to say alot about it right now. but i will let you know how it goes. :)

Starting my 24hrs. Class

Just wanted to give an update that i have been waiting for!!!! I AM FINALLY ENROLLED IN MY FIRST FIRE CLASS!!! totally excited! i have alittle over a month of saturday classes to take and then as long as i pass the test on oct. 18th, i will be able to start making runs. So keep your fingures crossed that i pass! LOL! thanks for the wonderful wishes Jillie! :)

Drags Races!

This weekend, I got to go to the NHRA Nationals in Indy... and just let me say... ONE OF THE COOLEST THINGS I HAVE EVER SEEN! I fell in love with it! The fast pace of the races, the way they just FLEW down the track... it was AWESOME! plus being the only girl with 5 other guys... yeah they didn't think i would cut it! LOL but i am sooo excited to go back again next year!
Oh yeah i even got a hat! The funny cars were great and until it was dark out i didn't even know that flames came out the side! i would recommend it to anyone... quite a rush! Man, if i could only get the job as a driver to one of these cars... i would be set! hope that everyone else had a great weekend! just thought i would keep the blog thing up jillie! LOL! ;)

Something new for me!

Well, i have started the process of becoming a volunteer fire fighter. Sort of a new thing for me... to say the least! I have the book that is taught in the class, and have been going through it and taking notes to get a jump start on the classes i will be taking. I am excited for everything to come! The book however is HUGE and it's kinda like being back in school again. But i have been looking for something new where i can volunteer my time, and with working in my field, i have become very interested in the whole aspect of fire fighting. So i am back in the gym and studying again. I don't know when the classes will start or any of the details yet. I do know that i will be the only female on the department and am ready for all the crap (in a good way) that the guys will surely blow me! LOL but that's not different from what i am use to at my job. Should be interesting and i have always like helping people. So here goes nothing! :)

Guppie pic!!

As another side this is a new picture of little Guppie!! He is still one of the cutest i have ever seen, and of course Bob had to dress him up all in Yankee stuff. (but we won't fault the little man for that!) Darcy also put up some other pics on her myspace page, and while all the pics are great... the ones with Darcy, Bob and Connor as just freaking adorable!! I am soo happy that they have the family they have always wanted!

It's 5 o'clock Somewhere!

I AM GOING TO SEE JIMMY! i use to work at Verizon Wireless Music Center a.k.a... Deer Creek (which it will always be!) in Noblesville, and i have gotten the privelge to see and hear ALOT of great concerts. But tomm 7/29 i will be heading to one of the most interesting experiences i have yet to have... THE JIMMY BUFFET CONCERT! basically if any of you don't know, the concert is like one HUGE party. so it will be interesting! i am sooo excited. and mom is going with me and she is a big Buffet fan! I went into fort wayne the other day and she has her grass skirt, and shark fin hat... yeah little scared! LOL! guess mom it def where i get the craziness side of me! LOL

as for the last post... thank you emma and jillie for your great words... and i don't even know what was up with me at that point in time. prolly just had to get something out of my head. and jill you started this blog thing! LOL LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH!

Just something that popped into my head

Maybe this is just me, but maybe not. Have you ever wanted to be with someone or not be with someone and things just aren't' working out? I know this is confusing... and if you were in my head right now you would kinda know where i am coming from. (that is if you would not get lost in everything that i am trying to make sense of at this point in time, which is like usual... ALOT!!) Anyways, trying to get back to the point....

I have not ever done the relationship thing... i have meantioned that before in prolly a previous blog, and if you know me you know that is the truth, but lately i have sorta tried get out there. Now this hasn't worked so well... in fact it really hasn't worked at all. I met a guy that i was determined to at least give a shot... then come to find out that he has about 3 or 4 kids but different women, is 35yrs old, and still lives with his parents. Not exactly where i would like to start. But i was going to give him the benefit of the doubt, then the stalker-ish side of him came out, and lets just say, i wish he would loose my number! Then another guy took and interest, but he had just broken up with his long-time girlfriend, .... not looking to be a rebound. And reading this i am starting to wonder if i seem to just make excuses in order to not take that first step. I think i want to, but looking at this i would have to 2nd guess myself.

Another thing is that i might not have alot of time for a boyfriend yet. I work ALOT! and never know when i might have to get called in... which if i was the kind of person that said no, it wouldn't matter... but saving up to buy a house will make one work ALOT of hours. Plus there is a factor that i have not had to "answer" or "check " in with anyone in my life... i don't mean for this to sound bad, cuz it's not ness. a bad thing. I just mean that i haven't had to think about someone else before doing whatever it is i want to do... and about 80% of the time, i don't even know what i am doing before i do it. (as little sense as that makes)

But here is the thing, i am usually just the friend. I hang out with guys WAY more than i do girls... and enter into the "friend zone" which is good... if that is where you want to be. Which in most cases i do want to be in that zone... but there are certain times that you think... what if? but the problem with "what if" is that you don't know what the other person is thinking. And i am usually WRONG! lol... Now the question is .... what do i do? And there are prolly alot of different answers to this quetion, which some might lead to more questions... i am just all confused in this area, and prolly need to get professional help with this! haha, (i hope that was a joke) But for now, i am just going to focus on myself. And that is important to me... and kinda what i am use to doing in a way. I am thinking about getting on a fire department and volenteer my time there... so that should be interesting. I am going to learn to not care what others think.. and just make myself happy. not that i wouldn't be happy with someone else in my life... but i have to start somewhere. So for now... i am just going to be me.... and that's all i can be.

MY Bucket List

ok, so i am sitting here at work... and a thought popped into my head so i decided to share it. Lately there is a movie that came out called "The Bucket List" now, i have not watched the movie, however i have seen the previews and kinda know what it is about. So as the random thought of the movie popped into my head i kinda wondered... If i had a bucket list ... what would be on it. (for those who don't know the movie is basically about 2 people who are about to die ..."kick the bucket" ... and do things that they have never done or have prolly ever thought of doing before they do die)

so here is what i think i would like to do before it is my time to go.... (which hopefully doesn't happen for awhile) .... in no order

1. go out of the united states at some point in time and visit other cultures

2. build a house, not really for myself but for habitates of humanity

3. see a meter shower

4. climb a mountain

5. ride a bull

6. bungee jump

7. sky dive

8. white water raft

9. love unconditionally

10. learn sign language

11. make a difference in someone's life

12. watch the face of someone seeing the world for the first time

13. witness a miracle (kinda walk to remember-ish... but still)

14. watch as many sun sets and sun rises as possible

15. have my father walk me down the isle

16. lay on a private beach

17. go on a cruise

18. see as much of the world as possible

19. walk through a rain forrest (and not get eaten by a big bug or come back with some funky disease)

20. know that no matter what happens to me, everyone else will be happy

now i am sure that if i keep thinking i could come up with more or even better ones... but that's a good start i think. but no matter what happens in my life the number one thing i want to happen is to be happy. take the bad, the ugly, and the wonderful all together and as long as you can still wake up the next morning and start a new day everything will be fine. and if i go get to do some of these things... you can bet i will be able to look back at my life and say....

BABY GUPPIE!

ok, so it's like 2am, and i know have i to add to this blog thing, and let's face it i am really bored here at work! so i decided to introduce my readers (prolly only jill) to baby Connor Robert Fish, Darcy's and Bob's little one... or as i call him Guppie! (cuz we all know that a baby fish is called a guppie, yeah he will prolly continue to be called that from me until he decides he wants to start dating and i am forced to not embarrass him anymore!)
He is one of the cutest little ones i have seen, then again everyone says that. but Guppie is truly a wonderful baby, hardly cries, unless he wants food or has bad gas (let's face it he is his mother's son when it comes to that!) lol. This picture i took of him is when we were getting ready to go on a drive (Darcy was driving, i do not trust myself for that big responsibility yet and prolly won't for a long time!) and then Darcy looked at me, after i had fastened the car seat wrong around him, and said that it was too hot for a blanket. This is one of the many reasons why if or when i do have kids... they are going to need alot of help! not to mention that i got lost in Babie's R Us... yeah that's another story.
BUT ... be proud of me, i did change a one of the YUCKIEST diapers the other day when i was over there... and let me tell ya... he sat there and smiled at me while i was in shock that someone sooo little could make that big of a mess! but i love him, and therefore i will do anything for the little stinker! LOL.

I am employeed!

Things are working out now... FINALLY! i am now employed as a full time person with a real job!! how exciting! lol... now looking forward to getting my own house with a dog! yeah i know real exciting... but at least something to look forward to. not that i am not looking for other options, i would like have my weekends off and more money is never a bad thing. but i like doing what i do for the most part, and if i would leave i would really miss the guys making fun of me via text messages and all the other way they seem to get that job done! LOL just wanted to let you know... and thanks jill!

Snap, Crackle, Pop!

Well... it's that time of year again! and i for one am totally excited about it! BONFIRES!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! lol. what can i say, always been a country girl at heart, born and raised, nothing will ever change that! and i love a good bonfire! you have to admitt that they are great anyway you look at them... well as long as they are under control and don't catch other things on fire, which is where you would make me actually have to work and let's face it... that's not nice! LOL!
but seriously think about it... bonfires are GREAT! you and a group of friends, or just you and your boyfriend/girlfriend, significant other, ... whatever you crazy kids are calling it now a days! ;) for a more romantic feeling. but nothing is better to me than to chill by a fire, kick back, relax, maybe have a few drinks, (that is if you aren't planning on driving anywhere or you have a dd, or heck make them virgins!) either way... you are outdoors, relaxed... sounds of the crickets, snapping and popping of the flames and wood... seriously it's fun!
the only draw back is that you come home smelling like a bonfire... not the best thing in the world but an exception that i am willing to make! so here's wishing everyone a safe, happy, WONDERFUL BONFIRE SEASON! and stay safe out there! :)

Behind every cloud.... there's sunshine

well i think i am getting better at this... right Jillie?? second post in about a week!! be proud! ;)

anyways i think that things are finally getting better. and i am actually starting to feel like myself again... which is a good thing. through everything that has happened lately, i am finally smiling again, which is very important to me. but at the same time i am ready to move on. i am looking for a new job, and finally starting to take the steps into the dating world. SCAREY I KNOW!!! lol. but it has to be done! but i am also ready for whatever life throws at me... which is after this week from hell i need to be! i am just taking things as they come... and not worrying about what other people feel the need to say or do. you know how the old saying goes... "behind every cloud there is sunshine" ... well i needed to be reminded of that.

and i am at the point now that i really do believe that you make the most out of every moment that you have. whatever happens to you... you ultimately decided how to take it and if that situation is good or bad. so from now on i am taking whatever life decides to throw at me as just another challenge that i can overcome. true some of them are going to take longer and be tougher than others... but all in all it will make me stronger and prouder of my accomplishments. so bring on the good and the bad... i am ready.

Rumors

Ever notice that people talk about alot of things... but mostly about other people? I just don't understand the point in it. I mean yeah, i have and prolly will continue to talk about others, but mostly it is about the good things in their lives, like the just had a new baby, or they are moving, or things like that. i really don't like talking bab about people, i just don't and have never really seen the point in doing it. but it seems lately that i can not get out of the rumor mill, and i am not sure why!
I don't have an exciting life, and honeslty probably couldn't handle it if i did. i work, work out, go home and watch the tube for a bit, then go to bed to start the process all over again. so really, there is not anything special about being me. but for some reason lately people can not stop spreading things that are totoally un-true!! and i am usually pretty good about letting things go. i think i have always been the kind of person to not really care what others think... prolly not so much in high school, but in the later years i know that i am a pretty up-beat, easy going kind of girl. but that hasn't gotten me anywhere lately.
so i guess what i am saying is that if people want to continue to make my life so great and exciting for me... then go ahead. I know what i have done, and what i have not done. the important people in my life and my true friends also know the truth. so if you want to bring me down or at least try to make yourself feel better... then i think you need to take a good look in the mirror. because life is way to short for me to worry about it anymore. i will not spend the rest of my short trip on this earth wondering and worrying about what other who obviously don't matter think of me. i am me, that's all i can be, and i honestly would not change the person i have become for the world. you got a problem with that... than you deal with it... I AM DONE!

Just being me!

Alright, Jill said that i am not doing to well at this bolg thing, and told me to post some more! Sorry!! i have been really busy lately on many different levels! For one i have been working since last Tuesday and no day off... thankfully i am now just about 2 hours away from being off for 2 whole days!! totoally PUMPED! not that i have alot of plans but whatever! ;) just excited to be off.
other than that i have been keeping keeping a friend company since her hubby was out of town. and tomm i am off to indy for a night and take care of another sick friend! what can i say, my friends mean more to me than anything! and i would do anything for them!
maybe i will find sometime and get to relax, but then again i will prolly just have the drive time to myself.... no biggie, i love driving! just me, my car, some great tunes, and the open road (or what i hope is the open road!)
not much has changed in my life... my wonderful cousin Darcy had her little baby! totally happy and proud for them! Connor Robert Fish... a.k.a. Guppie (what i call him) is the cutest little guy i have ever seen! he is great... and even though i am kinda scared of little babies (kinda scared i will break them) i did get to hold him for awhile. can't wait to see him again!
can't really think of much else at this time.... still no boyfriend, living with the parents, and same old job... lol, but that's ok! i kinda have a simple not very complicated life... and i like it that way! ;)

Here we go!

Ok, Jillie got me started in this, I don't know how long it will last! LOL. So, here goes nothing...
I am kinda your average girl in the most part. I graduated from college with a BA in telecommunicaitons, and am not exactly in the field i want to be in, but it's a good job. I enjoy all the people that i have met and could not ask for a better group of guys to work for and with. Sure there are some bumps in the road every now and then, but that comes along everywhere. I still live at home with mom and dad, and it's not really what i thought would happen when i graduated but since my job is not exactly stable (i guess you could say) it's the only choice i have. lol! So, I am making the best of it! And i love my parents, and since i am working 2nd shift, it's not like we are in each other's ways alot.
As for the social life, well that's alot different since i graduated as well. I still stay in touch with some of the people from college, but also have made new friends. Again, the guys at work are some of the craziest people i have ever met, but you also know that you are safe with them. DUH! LOL! ;) I also got to spend more time with the people from high school that meant alot to me, and was able to reconnect with some of them... who i missed so much while in college. But everyone's lives are changing... getting married, having children, and that is wonderful for them... i could not be happier for the people that deserve all the best!
Me, however, i am still the same, no marriage, no kids, and i am fine with that... i am not ready for either. Life goes on, and I wake up everyday with a smile just waiting to see what surprises are in store next! :) hope this was a good first blog Jillie!

Welcome Ashley!

Ashley welcome to the blog world :) Let's get it started! :)